Saturday, May 13, 2006
looks like the load isn't really lightened, there are actually more weights that came after the train of tests. when can i not have so many things on my mind. and the YM's really facing a ARID period now, yes we are and so am i. yes pray i will but it's quite a bugging issue. i myself am not even doing enough about this and more. i haven't been a good DP leader, haven't devoted myself to ym, and have been doing everything at the 11th hour. really, whatever it is, poor time management or whatnot, -ok i have nothing to say-
no more. i'm just following the motions. no emotions in the motion. must do this, ok i do that, why i do it, i really am not clear. and it's irritating me how the weather now has reached a warmer period although it poured this afternoon. and it sucks that the study room has no aircon, the fan isn't helping much, and i can't carry my computer into my room. if you realised, this is one negative complaining blog entry.
doesn't help also that i have to clear that weekend homework 'to-do's' and today i've accomplished none of that because i'm such a lazy slacker bum, who sleeps in late and feels inertia and requires more force than 100000000N to move, who should really stop snacking so much on marie biscuits and dark chocoalte and should stop watching tv or coming online. grrrrrr.
i would really love to do something well and put in all my effort now but i don't think i can. neither can i take a break from doing stuff because i see the JCTs exam timetable staring back at me though i was happy that i only have FOUR highlighted lines of which three are afternoon papers. maybe its time for me to start journelling again. i can't take it out here forever. i must do this, must do that, how can i do so many things at a time? now i look at my life and can safely say that nothing is going well, at all. nah-ah (ewww so typical a statement) but it's true because i say so. this is a sign, this is a sign. :/ so many obligations, i'm really sorry if i can't make it or didn't go to the choir/band/... concerts, i apologise to my musicians for tomorrow and if in anyway i have been an unsupporting or busy friend.
