Thursday, September 14, 2006
my prelims are so messed up.
firstly, i don't think i know how to organise my time. therefore in today's case, i left 12 marks of stats blank.
which brings me to bitch about the stats questions. i thought i could count(punny pun pun) on stats to bring up my paper 1 marks, but NO, no way will the tj math department let us get away with normal questions. there were 1, 2.. no..3 extraordinarily difficult questions, of which one was unsolvable (because the top scorer in our class cannot solve it either) and the other took up so much time but still didn't lead to an answer (i wasted alot of time trying to figure those two questions) and the rest were just a jumbled mess of writings which i don't wish to recall. why can't the stats questions be more along the line of ordinary like those in the prelim rev pack or even the tj 2005 prelim paper. i think i left 30+ marks blank for each paper. yup marvellous aren't i?
i think i'm going to fail my math. again. whyyyyy why can't i get a decent pass. it's just math for goodness sake. what's wrong with me.?! ?! it's not like i didn't practice. i did practice my math i was doing the prelim revision package, i attended remedial faithfully... and after all the effort, it's not worth it.
and chem i can't quite remember but it wasn't good either. at least i still have a paper 2 and mcq to go. well at least i know i won't be getting a meagre 20+ marks like in jcts.
and the bio paper... sighh i'm getting lazy to whine about everything. no good i'm going to chiong option paper for tomorrow.
and i thought maybe this time i could get Bs or Cs at least. :/ nope i doubt so.i'm not the case of 'did badly from j1 till now, study hard, ace the prelims' i wonder if i can even get an A for a levels. it's very demoralising when you know you've studied much more but still cannot get good grades, makes me feel kinda, well, not as bright. i know this is where people will say that i shouldn't be saying that to discourage myself or something. sigh i wish i was rich then maybe i can be a socialite like paris hilton and have no such exam woes.
exams are so trying and draining that if i went bankrupt in the future, i'll probably be thinking back and realising bankruptcy is no big deal. how like that i know i'm stuck in singapore i'm not going to try applying for any overseas uni thats not within my reach i'll just stay here but i still need A grades.
from a mini daily devotion calendar thing above the monitor, september 14th's verse reads, "for i know the plans i have for you, says the Lord. they are plans for good and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope." jeremiah 29:11.
it's a everyone's 'encouragement verse' but at times like this, it's meaning is suddenly magnified.
