Monday, October 02, 2006
(just like the GP (damn gp) passage says, the inundation of technology has led to a loss of character-building and that's just the case now. i type what i type now on impulse because i can do this is seconds. i can hit the 'publish post' button just like that, without giving seconds thoughts to what i'm about to say)
i don't think i can consolidate my thoughts now
everything's jumbled in my head
i know people care about me but i'd like to be left alone.
think cry pray sleep, whatever i must do, in private before i start talking to people.
i don't feel like going to schooooooolllllll
i know i'm a little selfish here because i'm not the only one feeling like that.
i'm supposed to be leading worship this saturday i really don't know how i can prepare for it given the circumstance but i can try it's not impossible
ok i failed gp.(?!w?!t?!?h?) right. how can i fail gp at prelims. mind you it's the lowest grade i ever got, ever. it's not like i have no knowledge whatsoever, neither is my english atrocious. i don't know what went wrong (right now i don't want to either) how come everyones improving but i'm stuck, not only stuck but deproving.
it's difficult to even think positive now. and negative to the point where i get on the bus and i see a seat right at the back of the upper deck with words "loser no. 1" vandalised on it with liquid paper probably by some ah beng out there. hey i was tempted to go sit there ok but that'll be stupid. oh by the way, no i'm not hallucinating. hallucinating's not my thing.
this is NOT only about GP, it's also about everything else.
ughhhhhh.
