Monday, October 16, 2006
these are my fats
for most of my life, as far as i can recall, i never was fat or plump.
i was a chubby baby, then i started to fall ill more often at around 3 or 4 years old. most of the baby fat was gone by then. actually no point mentioning this.
in primary school, my aunt used to weigh my almost everyday and go on and on about how my wrist was so small and how i was too skinny. i remember the weighing as inaccurate but yes i was quite boney. then, i loved to have macdonalds big breakfast for lunch before boarding the school bus (and watch cartoon network). when i went to faith's house during the hols, we would visit the 'mama shop' quite often and spend money on junk food. you know, it's a wonder how much energy children use. if i ate that amount now i'd be highly obese.
in sec 2, we swore by lunch at yoshinoya.
breaks were great because we ate nasi briyani. then in sec 4, people started getting conscious and i figured, somehow, though i don't recall much of it,that i shouldn't eat so much. so my morning to lunch diet basically consisted of wangwang biscuits, tau sa pau, the green vege drink which i still drink alot of these days(they're not as disgusting as they look!), blahblah maybe i ate somemore when i got home but i don't remember. i think that was approximately when fats started accumulating more as subcutaneous fat.
i've tried to look through past photos to pin-point where the fat accumulation actually started but i can't, because tummy fats wasn't in my vocabulary and eating was a matter of financial affordability, not the calorie affordability. now i have an abundance of savings but not much to spare on the calorie side. i exercise more than i ever did in secondary school. but why is it that as people get older, the more difficult it is to get rid of fats? i'm not talking mass here but visible fat. why do some people eat and not get subc. fat? why don't i eat less and not more due to examinations? whywhywhy?
the point here is, my weight is like a sigmoidal curve and i'm at the maximum of the y axis now. i hope this is the maximum. when you hit the top for something like this, the only way had better be down. and fyi, i have haagen daz strawberry cheesecake and rum raisin icecream, 4 slabs of chocolate, and unmuffin muffins at home now. i don't want to become fat teen! 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, fatteen.
thank god for the gym. the haze is polluting my lungs and i never realised the importance of air conditioning. we ponned our last bio lecture, our last bio tutorial, and yay tomorrow! camwhoring!
