Monday, April 30, 2007
the real world is a bitch.
the whole world is a bitch except for my friends and my family, really.
turned out what i said in the friday/saturday post is something important. let me now go into detail.
first i was called on friday by (let's call her "Q" although her name doesn't start with q or anything like it) Q (who is a shop supervisor of sorts) to go down to the office on monday to discuss something with "L" (the equivalent of a manager i think). and i was told to bring my uniform and tee (so i obviously turn paranoid because there's no reason why i should bring them down). yup so that bugged me for a very long while but i still slept well and still got my weekend fun. i asked Q what the discussion is about, she obviously chose not to reply
then i asked Q a second time yesterday abt the discussion. this time she replied telling me she doesn't know exactly what it's about. (later you'll realise that this is a lie) fine. so i went down.
point 1: L told me that the roster doesn't work for them, they don't want someone who cannot work on so many days. but the thing is, i have stated very clearly at the interview that i can work every weekday but can't work on weekends. and they told me they're fine with it. and i said EVERY weekday, which is ALOT OF DAYS if you count. plus, they said at the friday meeting that 14 days is "quite covered" for someone new. so they are contradicting themselves. i don't know how you factor what i said into the roster but that's your problem. ok, i take it that the roster issue might be a misunderstanding.
the rest of the points: Q gave feedback to L saying my attitude sucks. really WTH, i tried as hard as i could to take in as much as possible, write what i learnt down (you want to have a look at it!?! !?), read about the products, ask questions (i'm not going to ask questions for the sake of asking, i'll ask when i have to). so i took a one hour lunch on wednesday. that was with two other colleagues mind you. never mind about that. so on thursday i bought food back but i wasn't aware that i'm not supposed to eat at the shop so i brought my stuff down, fine by me, i complied so that's not a point against me. and now they tell me that i can't take so long a break when they themselves said that we can take either a half hour or 1 hour break?! why do they keep contradicting themselves?! secondly, i buy food back for you (which took up 15 mins of that time) and you still say such things? how am i to know that some person haven't taken lunch and dinner. so 1 hour minus the 15mins i was back at the shop and 15mins queueing for YOUR food, thats only half an hours break.
next, they claim that i'm not familiar with how the shop works. if they leave me to handle the shop on my own, i won't be able to manage, "and most of them are independently handling the shops now."do i know how to work the POS? i know how to work it, just that i believe that it's always important to clarify because i don't want to key in anything wrongly. i may have came across unsure when i ask about the CC codes but i'm sure you rather me ask than key in wrongly right. anyway i've only been at the shop for two proper shifts so if you expect to get someone who learns the ropes so quickly, and in two days, to be as familiar as someone who has worked there for 1 month, you're going to be terribly disappointed. i think i took one of the shortest times to learn how to tie those ribbons. give a guy that task and it's going to take a long time.
now L has heard my side of the story. so i'll meet with Q on wednesday to clarify all those things she said, most of them totally untrue. even if they decide to let me continue, i'll have to think about it. i won't use the words "give me another chance" because in this case, i haven't done anything wrong by me. if i know i'm wrong i'll say it, like the bus 62 thing, partly my fault. but this, i've done nothing wrong.meanwhile, good luck rostering all over again, you'll have a hard time and i hope i don't end up in the same uni faculty as you. i hope one day you'll realise that God says not to lie, not to give false testimonies etc.
i should have taken more samples last week, gave ALL my friends samples, i regret that i didn't. i can't stop you from saying what you want to, but as long as i stand by what i believe in, and my conscience is clear, i'll just like you to know that what you said is false and i don't think i have any respect whatsoever for you. my choosing not to continue working there is not because i'm guilty but it's for the good of both parties, so that i don't have to force myself to be in an environment i'm not comfortable in and i don't have to work with such people. secondly, so you don't continue to step all over me. this is not attitude, this is merely standing up for myself. i can do without this job i think i'll be much happier somewhere else, maybe godiva. :P
thanks jas for listening to me rant over the phone, choy over sms, and some of you whom i've yet to talk to but will talk to. yup i need to keep talking about it until i feel the need to stop. haha. and my mom and dad have been great too. :) i was thinking too how i miss school, how it's free of all these troubles, how people may sometimes be horrible but not to this extent. so you see, the world's a real bad place to be in. only friends and parents will stand by you, only God will keep assuring me of His unconditional love. no matter what the world thinks, it only matters what i am in His eyes. Before i left the house just now i was flipping the Bible and i came across these verses:
17For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. 18So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.for now, yay for labour day! i hope we get to go ecp or something. and i always look forward to the weekends! :) i love my job, i love chocolates, i still will, but as for the people, i hope i never meet you all again.
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