Thursday, August 02, 2007
i am so boreddd now.
i want my laptop. going to collect it on monday. actually why not tomorrow??????? could have gotten it yesterday but my parents said "interest free loan, good what". then when i came home and told them(i told them before) that i have tons of forms to fill in plus i need a guarantor etc., my mom decided that we should pay by cheque to save all that hassle.
oh and i just declared my major as life science. not waiting for the FST reply anymore. i don't even think i stand a good chance at getting in (thanks to my stupid a level results) so... no more. it will still be a dream of mine, and only a dream. sweet dreams :), literally.
i'm so bored now. i want to bid for something but most of the life sci modules aren't up for bidding yet. and the general mods are in 2a. :/
no munchables at home :(
edit:
did i mention that sometimes i think my parents are really weird and cranky. yes they are.
making a mountain out of a teeny weeny molehill.
my mom just made a huge issue out of something as minute as orientation. me not telling them that i'm actually going to school on 13th instead of 6th. tell me, how am i to know that they think i'm going on 6th. the last they even said that was in april when i knew zilch abt orientation. it sounds really absurd to me. i really wonder how they even think. how their brain can conjure up so much funny thoughts in a few seconds. and this will also lead to "you don't tell us anything... if people ask us, we have to tell them we don't know don't you think that's very funny... we're your parents and your friend knows more than we do... we don't understand you anymore... what are you so resentful about". it always does, which is why i'm so tired of hearing it and why i sometimes don't even want to bother debating over something like that because it just goes round and round and in the end it's meaningless and the next time something like that happens, it's just going to come up again like undigested food. and somehow somewhere they will ask me "why are you so angry", sometimes i really am not but they don't believe that i'm not. sometimes my looks spells "this is really absurd" or "sighh it's the same thing again" rather than "i am angry/resentful".
please be reasonable i can't tell you anything and everything about my life, every minute of it because it's not possible. plus my idea of telling them stuff isn't their idea of me telling them stuff. their idea is everything, from like an ant is crawling over me to i had the ultimate most shitty day of my life. and my idea is (honestly i had a bit of difficulty thinking of this) calling them first when i get my results, telling them about hongkong on the way home, which laptop should i get etc. not exactly heart to heart stuff because and only because there's a barrier, because i have heard this "you don't talk to us" thing too many times over and i think i'm the "the more you BUG me the more i won't do it" type (unless it's having to plan something or do my work) it won't be good if i talk out of obligation. i think these things are cultivated, not forced out of someone. this whole thing wasn't initiated correctly and it only serves to make it worse by talking about it. it will take a lot to go back to the start when none of these were made an issue. quite impossible.
okkkaayyy this ends the whole issue. by tomorrow it would have been a stupid issue and nothing is really achieved. and the next time they are displeased about something, everything will be blown out of proportion and this issue will tag along... again.
Labels: parents, school
