Tuesday, August 07, 2007
the time has come for me to do a 'looking back on the past 8.5 months' post.
so, looking back on the past 8 and a half very long but enjoyable months, i can say i thoroughly enjoyed myself.
4.5 months working,
4 months bumming
working was tiring but i got good money from admin and i didn't have homework. i don't know what happened to more than half of my money because i don't have that much left. i don't think i'm such a spendthrift but i guess everything adds up.
then there were the times i bummed around at home. half the time i went out and caught up with friends, the other half was spent watching tv and sleeping, mainly. a typical day would look like this:sleep at 3 or 4am, wake up at 2pm, watch tv and have lunch, watch tv somemore or go take a nap, have dinner, watch tv and go online. lifestyle of pig i know, but sometimes i find myself looking forward to the next day of bumming.
the time spent with friends were the best times. i lovelovelove sitting around talking and eating and shopping not so much shopping because it's tiring. this is when i wish to be a taitai in future :p (oh yes, not forgetting the HK trip and church camp+pangkor)
DYK! i've been in schools in the north-east, the east, and the south-west(?) and i've worked in the CBD. random information.
today i was back at the bedok area because i went to jolene's. other than 'i saw alot of tj people', i realised i miss JC life. i really do. mostly because my uni life, before uni has even started, hasn't been going too well. firstly i didn't get into the course i wanted, now i'm tangled up in this mess. there are three roads in front of me and i can't see the end to any one of them. option 1: stick with life sciences, option 2: stick with life sciences for now and at the end of year 1 apply to food science, option 3: transfer to fass
the problem with option 1 is, i have never thought of taking life science and now i'm stuck with pre-allocated modules of LSM1103 (biodiversity), CM1201(basic organice chem), ST1232(stats for life sciences), all of which weren't in my option list. i am forced to take these because my preferred option was fully registered already. why?! why do i always have to settle for second best. major in life sci is second best, this option is second best. and may i say that second best is not good at all. as much as i would prefer not going through so many stages of bidding, i would also like to have a say in where i go and what i do instead of having them forced on me because i simply have no other option.
the problem with option 2 is the woman at life sci dept just now. she so happened to be there when i was asking them about transferring fac. then she asked me why i wanted to transfer, so i told her and she said i don't have an interest in science and similarly food sci (something to that extent i really don't remember what people say, and she also teaches in food sci- errr ok) halfway i just gave up talking or listening to her because she was bent on her opinion. but yeah i guess she was half right. i won't say i love science but i don't dislike it either. neutral, yes neutral. i don't really like lab work and that's the primary reason for considering a transfer. lab work will be bearable if it was research on a topic of interest, but i don't think that's possible. actually that's not the point. the point is, it will be difficult to switch major after a year.
ok i came to the conclusion that i may just be better off at another faculty NOT researching. yes i brought all these upon myself. ARGH. i create so much trouble for myself and people at uni who have to keep answering my calls. if i had just applied to arts fac i won't even have a problem now. but in that case, i will never know what chance i stand in fst.
see my distress?!
i believe school is bearable if you have either or both of these two:
1) a module/course of your choice and interest
2) company
i definitely don't have 1), i do have 2) but it's limited and i can't expect my friends to accompany me all the time. thanks to my not registering for orientation, i feel like such a loner now. :(
my timetable now consists of two whole days of madness. 8-4 and 8-2 monday and thursday respectively. wednesday two hours of lecture. that's it for lectures, for the next week. for next week i'll enjoy a 2.5 day week.
oh back to why i miss JC. i miss JC because i passed it just now and as usual, nostalgia hits. and i recall everything from breaks to lectures and tutorials. seeing the students walk out from school makes me want to be back in those shoes, with homework, uniform and E/O/F grades. it's a feeling that needs extensive thinking just to come up with the right words to describe and i think this post is long enough.
if i go to school looking forward to the holidays and ccas, will it help?
i will still work hard and mug hard and get good grades, get a high CAP, and prove that i can score at bio stats and chem if i study hard and smart enough. then and only then will i have more options and have my own say. after all, in the general world, 'money speaks', in the academic world, 'grades speak'. yeah anyone wants to join me in studying hard?! :)
Labels: life in general, school
